An Insight of Dave

Bitch be gone!

2011-08-18T23:55:00.002+10:00

I plan on making this entry short and sweet....

12 months ago the dead weight which was sucking the life and money from me has gone, gone forever from my life! And you know how I feel about this 12 months down the track...GOOD FUCKING RIDDANCE! The ex-woman is gone and I couldn't be happier and truth be told I never want to hear from her ever again in my life...EVER!!!

So if you are reading this, do me a favour and please fuck off...forever!

I love my life and where I am...the past will not interfere with my life for as long as I shall live on this planet!

I beat you!

2011-07-20T09:38:00.003+10:00

Everyone thinks I don't deserve this award. I say to them FUCK YOU! I worked and showed interest in what I did and I earned this award. Sure I may not be the smartest student who achieves top marks, but I show a passion for what I do and this is my reward for that. Also I was given $500 prize money.
I will just say that the award was given to mature aged students studying in the field. Many students were nominated and a panel of staff chose me. I felt very lucky to get this and to have my wonderful partner with me on such an occasion.

A simple message

2011-06-03T00:12:00.005+10:00

This is a simple message to those out there who may read this as to keep tabs on me.

1) I barely update this and when I do, I do it to complain cause I know hardly anyone is actually reading this.

2) I don't even know why I still have this! Maybe to vent, who knows *shrug*

But I will say one thing as a means to portray how I feel at this very moment with issues in my life which I don't want people to know about, and this includes friends of mine, close friends....

Thanks for reading!

The End of Uni!

2011-05-30T16:57:00.002+10:00

So I've officially dropped out of uni. Yep, done! 6 months from finishing my degree and I dropped out. It wasn't helping me any more, I mean, seriously, bullshit classes which teach you nothing? Best thing I've done is to drop out and get back into the Workforce full time. Come to think of it, I could of saved a shit load of money if I didn't even go to uni, I could of stayed in the workforce and earn't a lot of money and have that apartment of mine, earning money from that! But noooo, I had to listen to a person (now an ex) and further my career for a future which never happened.

Meh, perhaps I was never cut out for it, learning once again after being out of school for so long. I just wish now I didn't have such a large bill to pay =\

My moment....only to be alone

2011-04-27T00:30:00.004+10:00

I've been nominated for an award by UWS for Outstanding Work in the fields of Horticulture, Agriculture and Environmental Science...and no one seems to even care that I've worked hard to be nominated and awarded this. Seems I'll be alone to receive my award in July.

You would think that after trying my heart out, being nominated by my Unit coordinator as well as having others nominated that I would be chosen and they would feel happy for me, yet they don't! They believe I don't deserve this. Yes, I admit that I'm not the smartest mature aged person out there, but I show determination and passion in what I do. You don't believe me when I write this, you can piss off from my life because I earnt this, I worked hard, this is my moment!

In July as I mentioned, I'll be alone to receive my award, in front of many other families, teachers and peers from other UWS locations. I'm very proud of this award and in fact being nominated does so much for me, yet no one is there to see me in my proud moment.

Life. Love. Uni

2010-10-23T12:05:00.002+11:00

This past month my life has gone in many directions. My Uni life has become so consumed I don't know what's happening half the time, and as of late my personal life has taken a turn, in the right direction of course, well mostly in the right direction. Its hard when you get to know someone on a close personal level, and than to have so much shit just dump on it...its not funny! It hinders all progress made and bonds made between them - yes them. When I look back at things, I can say that this semester at university has been my worst to date. If I manage to pass anything at all, I'd be a very happy man.

Fuck you world!

2010-10-10T01:32:00.002+11:00

Dear world...

Would you really miss an individual if they no longer existed? Would there footprint ever make the world a better place? Would anyone care if an individual no longer existed? Would the world care if I no longer existed? Would you be happy that I no longer leave a footprint on the earth? Is there someone who would care if I no longer existed?

The answer is no.

Hopeless beyond belief

2010-09-12T22:14:00.003+10:00

Everyday I wake and I think to myself, 'I still love her'. I try to put if out of my head but the more I think about it the more I plagues my mind. I need to find a way to shake this feeling because as long as it lingers, I know everything I do will have someone else on my mind.

It's been almost a month now....I'm hopeless beyond belief.

Angiosperms can go get fucked!

2010-06-15T20:21:00.004+10:00

Here I sit. Worrying about my exams. I'm gonna fail them, no question about it. I just haven't tried this semester.Probably should of, but I've had no motivation. I used to give it my all for someone who means the absolute world to me. Now I feel like I should drop out and become a laborer and spend my days out in the sun doing something worth while.

I have 12 hours of exams over the next week and a half, I need to worry about them, but in the front of my mind is the thought, 'Does she enjoy what she is doing?' That is something I cannot answer. It can be solved easily enough with a piece of lead, one second and it all goes away. That may sound like the easy way out of things, but it's the only one which makes the most sense. Why bother going through the crap which will unfold when the answer I want is clouded.

My life is currently fucked up at this point in time. I have an exam in ~12 hours, and I know nothing what so ever about plants. The only solace I can find in it all is getting away from the house and talking to someone who is a great vent person to talk too.

So, my life is in shambles and I wish to take the easy way out of it.

PS: I'm in good health. My weight issue has reverted back to the way it was when I was a child, so once again I'm a fat, well obese individual, and maybe this is the cause of all my issues.

Edit: BTW, I enjoy writing here because no one will read this...its a great place to vent when no one cares!

Shit! I need to update this thing

2009-11-04T18:38:00.001+11:00

I really should update this blog about everything thats happened throughout the past few months. I guess I should also study so I shall update this blog properly after my exams have be finished.

Time Passes By

2009-07-28T09:23:00.004+10:00

So yeah...it's about 2 months since I last wrote in this blog. Guess I'd better inform who ever reads this whats been happening.

I'm gonna start with recent events. Like Uni! Results came out 2 weeks ago, I was quite scared of getting them for the fact that I might fail Biology 1. So on the day that they were released I completely forgot they were released. It wasn't until 6pm when I realised that they were out. So off I went and checked the results. PASSED!!! And I passed Biology 1, in fact I passed everything with 1 Distinction, 2 Credits and the Pass for Biology which I'm content with. As the saying goes, "P's equals degrees." So now I'm currently in Semester 2 and after reading the Outlines and assessments, I can safely say 'I'm scared'! But if I managed to get through Semester 1 than I can get through this. Oh and it's fucking freezing on campus, damn Richmond!!!

Since I finished my exams I had 6 weeks off. I don't have a job at the moment but I'm working on that, just need to speak with a few of my old Technical Officers and see if they are willing to be my references which Bunnings so badly requires. But I didn't waste the whole time off...I wasted about 1/2 of it :-D And the other half was spent with Sam at her grandparents place in Cowra and also spending a weekend in the Mountains. The cabin was nice. Could of been better with what we paid, but nevertheless it was a good time away and time well spent with Sam. After we had a run in with leeches on the 2nd day and rats stealing out sweets, we both were glad to be back in civilization, but a break to the Country is always a great experience. Next time I believe a more solid concrete floor is required :-)

Oh and before I go, I have one more announcement to make...I'm getting addicted to the World of Warcraft. Originally I had the 10 day free trial, but now after playing it and seeing the 10 days is almost up, I've decided to upgrade my account. So now I'm officially part of the World! If anyone reads this and is part of Oceanic, and in the Saurfang Realm add me as your Friend. Mattace. Dwarf Paladin.

so I say as my forefather said before me...Let us make haste!!

You just gotta laugh

2009-06-02T17:34:00.002+10:00

Yeah I know, it's been awhile since I last wrote in this. Who reads this anyway? Probably no one. But this is an outlet to vent and rant and get whatever I have on my mind/chest off and out of it.

So the first semester has come to an end. Well exams are in a week so technically speaking it's not over yet. But I've really enjoyed myself at uni. I've made alot of new friends and colleagues whom I get along with quite well. They've helped out when needed and they provide a laugh/argument went required. Frenemies are a mans best friend. So what can I say now? Well I miss campus life, but I don't miss the study and assessments. Stupid scientific reports...but I know I'll have more of them in due time, so I guess I'd better get used to them.

So what has been happening in life? Not a whole lot. Mixed emotions, feelings and regret at times. But not much I can do. Although some days I ask if I've made the right choices in life? I think I have, I hope I have...only time will give me the answers. If the answer is wrong and I need to change things I guess it's all for the better, but I do hope it doesn't come to that.

So as I write in my reports, in conclusion uni life is awesome, life in general is going well.

Tic Toc Goes The HAC Clock

2009-03-19T09:40:00.001+11:00

Yeah I know...it's been a long time between posts, and seeing I have a spare 30 mins to waste I suppose I'd better fill anyone who reads this about whats been happening.

I've been at University for almost 4 weeks now and life is beginning to settle down. I've been given many asessments already but most arn't due for weeks, but they do require weeks of investigation and research which is really annoying especially when you are running a million things at once! But hey 'That's Uni' is what the teachers say to us day in and day out. It's Uni alright, and I wish it would dull itself down just a tad until I'm completely settled. Got my four classes; Intro to Chem, Biology 1, Understanding Landscape and Manahement of Aquatic Environments, and I'm quite happy with those at the moment. Now many thought I wouldn't make friends. But after the first week I already knew about 15 people and that's constantly rising as I meet new and exciting people...on record I now know about 20+ people in my classes, many are in my for main classes anway! But it's great to have people to hang with and not be the odd one out anymore. God bless camps and small groups, is all I can say.

So yeah...4 weeks into Uni now, quite happy with where I sit. Hope all goes well for me in the long run.

Okay I would write some more but I just notic ed the time and I need to trek to the Biology labs for some more Microscopy work.

Ciao for now!

Degree of Science

2009-02-19T16:12:00.003+11:00

I guess I'd better up date this with some news and the happenings of my not so out there life.

In my last entry I wrote how I'd applied for University and was waiting on the offers to be sent out. Low and behold I (a mature aged guy, who has been out of school since 2003) received an offer!! Needless to say I was happy with the offer and quite shocked that I got one. Hard to explain how I felt but it did feel good to be accepted into something different. The course..Bachelor of Science - Environmental Science. A science degree?? yeah, I'm shocked to. I mean I wasn't expecting to get in, but with entry with a science degree I'm delighted, better than an Arts degree but harder in reality. And where you may be asking yourself, University of Western Sydney - Hawkesbury campus, and yes that is a fair trip from when I'm situated (about an hrs drive - 100km round trip, and over two hours by train for the same distance), but I'm happy to have the car at my disposal to get there without dealing with Shitty..I mean Cityrail.

Now, I'm studying full-time for three years so this means I have to give up my only means of financial support - My job! So three weeks ago I gave my notice to my boss, who was on holidays at the time, and told 'em I'll be finishing up on the most luckiest day of the year...Friday 13th, Black Friday...the most luckiest day of the year. Yes I know it's said it's an unlucky day, and no I'm not Gothic and worship the dark days and the devil, I just had to explain to everyone that it's my last day and in my eyes it's a lucky day! So with that done I was free to dis the company to receptionists and have fun with it all. And yes I know dissing the company was wrong but people had to know the truth about the company and I thought they'd like to hear it.

So Science...challenging and interesting me thinks, and to help with it all and my subjects I had the pleasure of choosing to study Biology and Chemistry. And seeing I've never studied Chemistry and only done Biology for 40 weeks (not my choosing, I was forced to fill in units and this was the only class available), I was offered some help and refreshing with a couple of Bridging courses offered by the University. Needless to say I took part of it and loved it! The courses were great and refreshing knowledge and the early stages of learning with Chemistry and how it works in everyday life. So a big thanks to the teachers up there! My other two courses that I'll be studying are: Understanding Landscape and Management of Aquatic Environments...quite interesting and in depth in my eyes, but I look forward to it.

Now a side thing that many people would of shared is Valentines Day! And me like many others was apart of it. I decided to take Sammy out for a meal in a totally different location and genre that we are use too, so I took her to The Rocks and to a nice German place that is very popular...Lowenbrau Keller. I'm not sure how she took to the atmosphere of the place and just how busy it was, and the amount of beer that was flowing around the place, but I do seriously hope she liked it. Afterward dinner, we decided to go in search for some ice-cream at Circular Quay, Sam didn't mind but she was wearing a new pair of heals and I think her feet were trying to tell her something as we were walking. But we found ice-cream and she got to rest up. Only issue of the evening was the rain..and boy howdy did it rain!! But it ended well and as all great nights should.

And that pretty much sums up the last few weeks/months of whats been happening in my world.

Ciao

Sombre

2009-01-20T20:36:00.000+11:00

Life's a bitch! Plain and simple.

Feeling like crap for no real reason. Just am. Uni offers come out tomorrow night at 9pm. Will I get in?? Dunno. Is Uni what I really want to do, where I want to study?? Probably not. I needed a mental challenge and I got one learning 3U mathematics in 12 weeks.

Dunno really. Vent to where no one will read it. Why not!

Sorry if you read this.

A Week To Decide My Future

2009-01-15T19:26:00.000+11:00

In less than a week the University offers for New South Wales come out. Will I get in? Maybe. Will I end up being offered nothing and be a reject? Maybe. What will I do, if for some reason I get an offer? Consider the offer and go for it leaving behind a good income, and many people who car so much about my well being (by that I mean receptionists of doctors surgeries). But what happens if I don't? I have no real clue! I've looked at the Tafe options, and they show real promise in what they offer, but the unfortunate thing about this whole ordeal at Tafe is the Semester 1 courses have closed, so all I have to do is wait until the Semester 2 places to open and grab a place where I can. Now to me, I'd prefer to go to Tafe and learn Horticulture than go through three years of University. So why the hell did I do that darn Pre-Uni course?? Cause I though a university degree would carry more options than Tafe, but when I look at it now I can see that Tafe offers a great course in Certificate 2 and 3 horticulture and I think it's for me.

Now, I don't really know how you guys can do it. I mean spending hours kooked up in a office all day long and not be out there in the elements living life. I think my father's blood (even though it's my mothers) runs through me with the fact I CANNOT be stuck in doors anymore these days. I spent 6 years working at KFC as casual and a year as fulltime, and I had to get out. Now, these days I spend my work hours outdoors walking a constant circle around the CBD servicing the many doctors that plague the many biuldings. You'd be amazed at just how many hidden doctors there are in these buildings, but back to my train of thought, I can't be indoors anymore. On the weekends I have to do something otherwise I get bored, just like my father, and it must be outdoors. Either riding my bike or going Geocaching, I just have to be out there...it's now just who I'am. I need a change for the bleak city scene to something more challenging and interesting. I want to get into Tafe and study my arse off and become something more crediable than a damn pathology courier for a company that has become one shitful company to work for. I've had enough but the whole catch that I have not mentioned is, I have $5k worth of annual leave up my sleeve and I want it! I need it! I do not want to give that up! So I need to get holidays approved, get enrolled into Tafe (or Uni depending) and leave my current job behind and move forward to an industry that is bound to be filled with hard work and sweat!

I complain and bitch cause I can. And I don't know if anyone reads this but I don't care. If someone does read this, all they will see is a man letting a bunch of interweb strangers read his thoughts.

Ho Ho Ho ??

2008-12-22T17:14:00.000+11:00

It's almost time..almost time to leave the hussle and bussle of the city life and head 200 clicks West into the country..that's right it's Christmas time once again!!!

Now, I believe this will become a little Christmas tradition in the years to come when Sam and I, along with the rest of her family hop on over to Cowra, where her Grandparents live for some much needed RnR, although we can't really called it that seeing there is constantly something to do or be done. But it will be a nice relaxing time away from the city scene, which I get rather bored with quite quickly.

One benefit about this little trip is we are allowed to NOT be sleeping under the same roof with the rest of the family...we get to relax and stay at a little hotel/motel located less than 200 meters from the Grandparents house, which allows us to be together and and escape the debates from within the house.

Also, according to www.geocaching.com, there are quite a few caches hidden within Cowra so right there fun is to be had with Sam and the siblings. This may sound like work and not much relaxing, but it's very relaxing being out there and awya from the house.

So, Christmas is upon us and the New Year is just over a week away..I wonder what 2009 has instore for me and the world...who knows, I guess we just have to live it day by day and see what happens.

So, Merry Christmas Everybody and a Happy New Year to match!!

Uni catch up and Geocaching

2008-12-04T15:50:00.000+11:00

Now, it's been an awful long time since I last wrote on my blog, and I need to fill anyone who reads this thing in on whats been happening in my world. As it says; "An insight of Dave", and I do need to keep everyone informed about my boring life and whats happening in it. So lets begin!!

As some of you may know I attended Uni for 24 weeks as a mature aged person, who tried to get into Uni to study Geography. I had to do an English and Mathematics course in order to just be considered for a place to learn. Now, English wasn't and never is my favourite subject so when I got a 56 final mark, I though to myself "Common', I'm at least a 60!" But I do believe that was good for someone who is the C student and after a 5 year break from learning I did reasonably well...for me anyway! Secondly was Mathematics. Now as with English it wasn't a favourite subject, but it was marginally more interesting than what English has to offer. So here I am, 5 years out of completing General Maths and I'm chucked into a 2U-3U bridging course!! And my initial reaction was 'What the fuck!' I had no idea how to even do 2U Maths, let alone 3U!! But if I want to move on in this world I knew I had to give it a shot and stick with it. So for the next 12 weeks I sat in a concrete room with no windows and on the lower ground like a dungeon, trying to understand Calculus and the rest of the foreign maths formulae being dished out before my eyes. 3 tests is what we had to sit. 10%, 30% and 60% respectively. begun off well enough with the first test, completely screwing up the second, only to redeem myself on the third with a good decent 65% only to end my final overall mark of: 55!! So when I look back at it, I can see that in not being properly prepared for the 2nd test I practically killed any real chance for a Uni spot. But that is now in the hands of the UAC crew and their many minions to determine if they accept a student who is not the 80+% as the many others.
So I now wait and see what they have in store for me, and if I do not get any offers,I believe Tafe is a more likely option to undertake my studies.

Okay, enough of this uni crap for now. It's time to talk about a new recent exercise option. Geocaching! For anyone not knowing what it is, allow me to give you a brief description of what it is. Geocaching is a sport when you partake in a global event, with millions of participants. All you require is a GPS device, coordinates and a sense of fun and adventure! You begin with registering at the Geocaching website and looking up any caches near your home. Secondly you log these coordinates into your device and off you go following the direction it tells you to follow. depending on your actual device, you can get within 3 meters of the cache, which makes it easier to find in the end. Now once you are there you need to read the clues the 'hider' gave you to find the elusive cache. Now the cache can be micro, small, traditional or large in size (often depending on it's location). So the challenge is to find something strange or out of place within the surroundings. Once found, you log the find in the logbook provided, take a tidbit BUT you must leave one of equal value behind.
This is a fun and wonderful sport, with plenty of exercise involved. I could really write more about the experience but seeing I cannot be bothered at this point in time, I suggest you read into Sammy's Blog which will give you a better understanding of our first cache find and the experiences we had on the weekend searching in rocks and under logs to find these hidden treasure chests.

Thanks for reading :)

Images of the weekend hunts can be found here, curiosity of Sammy.

Employees Matter...

2008-11-10T18:20:00.000+11:00

Right now, work sucks! I mean, ever since I begun my Uni course in March this year, I've had my hrs cut and cut more so recently when I had to attend two nights per week. And now because the company is beginning taken over my some dick who has had trouble with banks and if the banks call in for the money owed, than the company will have to declare 'bankrupt' several times over. SERIOUSLY!

So as of now, my job is insecure and who in there right mind knows whats going on...only the dick in charge knows, thats who!

Oh this shits me big. Only benefit that I see, is having the afternoons off to do shopping, like I did today, and I get to have a nice long relaxed lunch, not the rushed one I normally have.

Just thought I'd vent how I feel about the company that gave me a great start, but is not screwing me around.

Pathology Matters...what about the employees aye!

Exam over...

2008-10-29T21:06:00.000+11:00

Okay, I play on keeping this one short.

Tonight was my final Maths exam, *cheers* thank heavens. And I must say they threw in some curve balls which took me and I'm sure a few others by surprise. But nevertheless I hung in there, answered most (missing on 1 or 2) questions, and I can be sure I had a majority of the correct answers, but if I didn't, I did do all the possible working-out needed for them, so I should get at least a couple marks from it. I feel positive about it, but if I do fail, at least I can turn around and say 'At least I tried to expand my learning capability, by challenging my mind to do better.'

The results get posted in a month and I shall inform you all than on how I went for this test and the reminder of the course.

Cheers

Lost Virginity

2008-10-28T20:29:00.000+11:00

Well greetings to whoever will read this.

My name is Dave, and welcome to 'An Insight of Dave'. As the title suggests, this is my first real Blog. Sure I had Myspace, but that doesn't really count towards anything. So this is a place where hopefully I will add often too, but otherwise just every now and than.

So who am I? I'm 23. I live in Sydney (Outer Western Suburbs really). I have a pack of wild dogs as pets. And I'm taken..sorry ladies.

Now let us begin to explain my year in a paragraph of two.

I begun by accompanying my girlfriend to her Uni Open Day in January, only to walk out of there with application forms for enrollment into a pre-uni course. A course which is used to re-teach those 'mature' aged people year 12 English and depending the field you wish to gain entry into Maths, which I chose. Now seeing I was a mid average student at high school, I knew I would have issues doing English once again, but to my surprise I learned new things and techniques that can be used in this day of literature. I could of worked harder than what I did to achieve a larger score, but what's done is done and I can't do much about that now.
As for the Maths, thats a different story..My final exam is tomorrow night and I really need to do well. I've studied heaps. Repeated many examples that I can take in and I've managed to understand it all, but I can only understand so much and I can bet a million dollars on it, that I will forget most of what I learn't in the actual exam room. I'm hoping that will not occur, but I will not hold my breath..unless that helps get me the average :)

So for 24 weeks I've learn't English and Maths, and it all comes down to tomorrow night, to determine if I attend University for the next three years..and if not than I guess I will have to explore other options to make a career for myself.

Wish me luck!!