Angiosperms can go get fucked!

Here I sit. Worrying about my exams. I'm gonna fail them, no question about it. I just haven't tried this semester.Probably should of, but I've had no motivation. I used to give it my all for someone who means the absolute world to me. Now I feel like I should drop out and become a laborer and spend my days out in the sun doing something worth while.

I have 12 hours of exams over the next week and a half, I need to worry about them, but in the front of my mind is the thought, 'Does she enjoy what she is doing?' That is something I cannot answer. It can be solved easily enough with a piece of lead, one second and it all goes away. That may sound like the easy way out of things, but it's the only one which makes the most sense. Why bother going through the crap which will unfold when the answer I want is clouded.

My life is currently fucked up at this point in time. I have an exam in ~12 hours, and I know nothing what so ever about plants. The only solace I can find in it all is getting away from the house and talking to someone who is a great vent person to talk too.

So, my life is in shambles and I wish to take the easy way out of it.

PS: I'm in good health. My weight issue has reverted back to the way it was when I was a child, so once again I'm a fat, well obese individual, and maybe this is the cause of all my issues.

Edit: BTW, I enjoy writing here because no one will read this...its a great place to vent when no one cares!